As of Friday, we are now back on the path of doing IVF Round #2, Donor eggs, with an anonymous donor through our clinic. As much as Kerry, our potential Egg Angel #2 wanted to be able to be our donor, there were just other issues that arose, that just made it difficult for her to do so.
By no means are we upset with her. If anything, we are beyond grateful and so touched and blessed that she even offered to do this tremendous feat for us. Know that it was not an easy decision for her.
As of this past Friday, we are now set. I was (very) lucky enough to be in contact with our schedule coordinator on Friday afternoon, and we already have our program start date scheduled. Whew. CJ and I will both undergo labs this week (*aka blood work and swimmer analysis for him*), and we were squeezed into a slot with our Doctor on Tuesday, March 18. This appointment will be our "program start", which includes our game plan with our doctor. I will undergo a procedure called a saline Sono-hysterogram, in which they will basically make sure my uterus is as it should be, and it will be measured, so that when they transfer the embryos in there in the future, they know how far exactly to put them. We'll also be meeting with the financial office *gulp*, and have to put payment down on this whole journey.
Overall, I'm glad the ball is finally rolling on this path. I am sad that we won't be using Mooshie as our donor again, and sad that it didn't work for Kerry to do so, but whatever is meant to be, well, it will happen. If anything, because we will not know the identity of our potential egg donor, our possible children will be able to call Mooshie their special auntie as well. In spirit, she wanted to be that, and if anything, she will always be a part of the family now.
So keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we finally buckle up to begin down this road again. The road to possibly another child (or two?). I am finally feeling at peace with this decision, and my spirits are incredibly optimistic that it can work. I am moved to tears when I imagine K interacting with a possible sister or brother (or both), and it makes my heart swell with joy.