Was it only a week ago I was feeling frustrated and blue because we had 3 couples ahead of us waiting for a donor? Well, our prayers have been answered: I came home today from the gym, and had a letter waiting in the mail: it is the opportunity to use a potential donor with our clinic!
I opened the letter at the mailbox, in the car, and could hardly contain my excitement. Here are the stats:
Ht: 5 '5 1/2' (exactly the same height as me)
Wt: 138 (my weight pre-PG w/K)
Eyes: blue (same as Mooshie and Keifer's)
Hair: Auburn (same as Mooshie and Keifer's)
Skin tone: Medium (I'm as fair as they come)
BA in Psychology and Criminal Justice, as well as Cosmetology - now a stylist
Two of her ethnic backgrounds are the same as mine, and her interests are reading, learning, working out and spending time with family and friends.
And the most important factor: she's proven with our clinic, which means she has had successful outcomes with couples using her eggs!
CJ gave me the go ahead, we've signed the acceptance and it'll be in the mail Monday.
THANK YOU for your prayers and well wishes. See, prayers can be answered. Now, we just need to work out our positive outlook for a successful PG and work on getting K a baby brother or sissy, or both! LOL
Showing posts with label Egg angel 2. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Egg angel 2. Show all posts
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Prayer Request
If you could, could you spare some prayers for Kerry, our possible egg donor #2? I won't get into details, but there are some things that are going on that might change the status of things with her being our donor, and she's in a hard spot right now. I really feel for her, and want her to feel good thoughts and feelings if she is going to do this, so (Kerry, I hope this is OK), please send her prayers for peace? I can't get her or the whole thought of this off my mind today.
Whatever CJ and I's path to achieving a successful PG the next time around is, well, God has it in his hands. I won't say I'm not completely numb at the thought of this whole process, because I am. My stomach is just twisted in knots, and I'm finding that after a sleepless night listening to K, I'm walking around in a daze and getting weepy at the drop of a pin. I am honestly so pissed at my own body, I could scream. Why can't this be easy for us? Why do we have to worry about finding an egg donor? Why can't my body just do what it's supposed to? And then, I find myself hoping and praying that Keifer has all of HER own eggs, because a female is born with all the eggs that they'll ever have. I think of little things like that, and I pray that my own daughter never has to feel this intense pain I feel in my heart knowing I don't have all the correct working "parts".
I am praying for Kerry and I am praying that, if its meant to be that we do an anonymous donor, so be it, and we'll find peace with that as well.
Whatever CJ and I's path to achieving a successful PG the next time around is, well, God has it in his hands. I won't say I'm not completely numb at the thought of this whole process, because I am. My stomach is just twisted in knots, and I'm finding that after a sleepless night listening to K, I'm walking around in a daze and getting weepy at the drop of a pin. I am honestly so pissed at my own body, I could scream. Why can't this be easy for us? Why do we have to worry about finding an egg donor? Why can't my body just do what it's supposed to? And then, I find myself hoping and praying that Keifer has all of HER own eggs, because a female is born with all the eggs that they'll ever have. I think of little things like that, and I pray that my own daughter never has to feel this intense pain I feel in my heart knowing I don't have all the correct working "parts".
I am praying for Kerry and I am praying that, if its meant to be that we do an anonymous donor, so be it, and we'll find peace with that as well.
Friday, February 22, 2008
IVF Donor Cycle #2 update:
I know many people are wondering what the status is on our "trying for baby #2" cycle.
There honestly hasn't been too much going on in that department to even talk about, but finally, today a little insight came through.
Kerry's paperwork has been given the "thumb's up" at our clinic.
The clinic coordinator finally connected with me today, and had a list of the things we need to do before we meet with our doctor and Kerry and finalize any sort of dates for the actual Retrieval and Transfer. I don't think people really realize just how MUCH time, effort, and background goes into something as seemingly "simple" as an egg retrieval and embryo transfer (not that they are simple, by any means; but, we just don't show up for the procedures and magically end up PG).
Kerry, myself and CJ all need to have our infectious diseases labs done (blood work), and Kerry needs to go in on CD3 (cycle day 3) of her next AF (period), for her hormone level checks. CJ needs to have his swimmers checked out again. Kerry also needs to have what's called a "pre-antral' count done, where they check out her follicles via an ultrasound, to determine the potential of her possible egg production (ie does her follicles look good and plentiful? I'm thinking, having produced triplets naturally (no drugs), um, YES?).
Kerry's DH also has to have his blood checked, because you know, she's married to him and they share stuff like that (diseases, right?).
Kerry and her DH, and CJ and I all need to meet with the clinic psychologist for a "group assessment" , which really means sitting down and talking about the if, ands or buts of the whole egg donor thing, with a known donor. CJ and I already met with the doctor on our first go around, but we need to do the group part of it again. *sigh*.
Then, when all this is done and shows up clean and pure, we meet with the doctor to discuss the "program start' dates. Kerry will need to go through a mock cycle, as will I, to see how we respond to certain drugs, etc,. and then the whole ball of wax will most likely take place in the summer sometime. The whole ball of wax being - needles, medications, shots in the stomach,s hots in the ass, pills, nerves, anxiety, egg retrievals, and hopefully, good embryo transfers. If we're really lucky, we might even have some left over embryos. Our clinic is so darn picky though, in freezing embryos and their quality, that if we do have leftovers, we'll consider that a bonus.
So please continue to keep us all in your prayers. My mind and emotions have been all over lately, and poor CJ has been taking the brunt of my worries.
There honestly hasn't been too much going on in that department to even talk about, but finally, today a little insight came through.
Kerry's paperwork has been given the "thumb's up" at our clinic.
The clinic coordinator finally connected with me today, and had a list of the things we need to do before we meet with our doctor and Kerry and finalize any sort of dates for the actual Retrieval and Transfer. I don't think people really realize just how MUCH time, effort, and background goes into something as seemingly "simple" as an egg retrieval and embryo transfer (not that they are simple, by any means; but, we just don't show up for the procedures and magically end up PG).
Kerry, myself and CJ all need to have our infectious diseases labs done (blood work), and Kerry needs to go in on CD3 (cycle day 3) of her next AF (period), for her hormone level checks. CJ needs to have his swimmers checked out again. Kerry also needs to have what's called a "pre-antral' count done, where they check out her follicles via an ultrasound, to determine the potential of her possible egg production (ie does her follicles look good and plentiful? I'm thinking, having produced triplets naturally (no drugs), um, YES?).
Kerry's DH also has to have his blood checked, because you know, she's married to him and they share stuff like that (diseases, right?).
Kerry and her DH, and CJ and I all need to meet with the clinic psychologist for a "group assessment" , which really means sitting down and talking about the if, ands or buts of the whole egg donor thing, with a known donor. CJ and I already met with the doctor on our first go around, but we need to do the group part of it again. *sigh*.
Then, when all this is done and shows up clean and pure, we meet with the doctor to discuss the "program start' dates. Kerry will need to go through a mock cycle, as will I, to see how we respond to certain drugs, etc,. and then the whole ball of wax will most likely take place in the summer sometime. The whole ball of wax being - needles, medications, shots in the stomach,s hots in the ass, pills, nerves, anxiety, egg retrievals, and hopefully, good embryo transfers. If we're really lucky, we might even have some left over embryos. Our clinic is so darn picky though, in freezing embryos and their quality, that if we do have leftovers, we'll consider that a bonus.
So please continue to keep us all in your prayers. My mind and emotions have been all over lately, and poor CJ has been taking the brunt of my worries.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Making New Friends
So last week, when we met up with Kerry (EA#2), as you know, we also met her family, including her DH, and her lovely 4 children. The triplets just turned one years old last week, so here's a belated birthday wish shout-out to them!
Apparently, CJ made quite the impression on Quinn. While we were there, CJ just jumped in with helping feed and entertain the babies, as well as Quinn, who had a lot of entertaining things to say and show us. After a few hours, Quinn developed a game where he would say, "ready, set, go!",and jump into CJ's arms.
Apparently, CJ made quite the impression on Quinn. While we were there, CJ just jumped in with helping feed and entertain the babies, as well as Quinn, who had a lot of entertaining things to say and show us. After a few hours, Quinn developed a game where he would say, "ready, set, go!",and jump into CJ's arms.
CJ with Ewan
In a correspondence with Kerry last week, she reported to me that Quinn not only made up a song about playing with Keifer and her daddy, but is also inquiring as to when he ("Keifer's daddy") will be visiting them again. Well, I hope the clinic takes note: if the child approves of this match, it must be in the cards! LOL.
I told Kerry after K's 9 month appointment how big she was, and that my girl is just such a crusher, that maybe she could someday be on Quinn's favorite show, "Ninja Warrior". Her response? She said Quinn would say, "you Go, girl" to K. Or, "Go Keifer, bust your way through that obstacle course"!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Paperwork
Kerry received her paperwork today (finally) from our Fertility clinic. The ball has left the chute......
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Now it makes some sense to me
Mooshie wrote to me the other day, and in her note, she basically summed up the feelings I've been having, moving down Donor path #2, and it made perfect sense. I've been feeling so sad and grieving the loss of not using her body again for this next attempt, and she compared it to her being the "ex" girlfriend, the "first love" that has been moved on from, and now we're onto our second "girlfriend" , if you will. It doesn't affect our relationship with girlfriend #2, but we'll always have our "first" and the bittersweet feelings from that relationship, as we move into our second one.
Here's what she said: What we had and have will always be special. I will always be your first.
She hit the nail right on the head. We all went down the path of IVF cycle #1, babes in the woods, scared and hopeful, and somewhat clueless as to what to expect. We trekked our way through the forest together, and came out the other side stronger, closer, wiser and PG. Thank you, dear Mooshie, for understanding so completely what the feelings I've been having are, and for being able to communicate them in a way that makes sense to other people. Now, it's like we were forced to "break up", if you will, and what I've been mourning is the loss of the "what if's" of our future.
Mooshie is also feeling sad that she isn't able to be our donor this time, but she did tell me that she is so excited that Kerry will *hopefully* be our donor: I think this is the way it's supposed to be. I think Kerry is the absolute perfect option for you....kind, funny, giving, caring, pretty, smart, quirky...and nearby. She obviously has awesome eggs and look at how cute her kids are. I've been following her blog for a long time so feel like I know her, too!! I feel like this is the journey meant for you.
CJ and I are very blessed that we have had these angels in our life offer to help us with a part of themselves, and its still amazing to me. Now let's hope and pray this second journey works as well as the first, and we are celebrating in another year, the possibility of Coco and/or Finn.
Here's what she said: What we had and have will always be special. I will always be your first.
She hit the nail right on the head. We all went down the path of IVF cycle #1, babes in the woods, scared and hopeful, and somewhat clueless as to what to expect. We trekked our way through the forest together, and came out the other side stronger, closer, wiser and PG. Thank you, dear Mooshie, for understanding so completely what the feelings I've been having are, and for being able to communicate them in a way that makes sense to other people. Now, it's like we were forced to "break up", if you will, and what I've been mourning is the loss of the "what if's" of our future.
Mooshie is also feeling sad that she isn't able to be our donor this time, but she did tell me that she is so excited that Kerry will *hopefully* be our donor: I think this is the way it's supposed to be. I think Kerry is the absolute perfect option for you....kind, funny, giving, caring, pretty, smart, quirky...and nearby. She obviously has awesome eggs and look at how cute her kids are. I've been following her blog for a long time so feel like I know her, too!! I feel like this is the journey meant for you.
CJ and I are very blessed that we have had these angels in our life offer to help us with a part of themselves, and its still amazing to me. Now let's hope and pray this second journey works as well as the first, and we are celebrating in another year, the possibility of Coco and/or Finn.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Our meeting went well: Egg Angel #2 update
I know many people are wondering, "how did it go on Saturday?". Rest assured, it went very well. CJ and I traveled north to visit our potential egg donor #2 on Saturday, after K's afternoon nap. We got a bit of a late start, as it was a later nap than usual, and we had to stop and fill our gas tank, as it was below zero outside. It took about 45 minutes or so to get to her home, but once we arrived, we both immediately felt at ease.
She has given me the OK to blog about her, so I'll tell you her name: it's Kerry. Yep, the same as mine, albeit spelled differently. Kerry has a 3 year old beautiful son, Quinn, and has three amazing babies: triplets, to be exact. Yep. Triplets. She is a super woman. She had triplets naturally - meaning with no fertility treatments or drugs needed. She is a statistical phenomenon. There are two little guys, Ewan and Noel, and one little princess-in-training, Mairin. To say we were in love is to put it mildly. What a fun house they have.
Kerry contacted me after keeping up with my blog, and I have her blog listed on the side of MY blog- A Womb with a Few. She is friends with friends of mine, and I have enjoyed following her tales of her PG and life with babies. We had never met face to face before, or even emailed for that matter.
We arrived at Kerry's home and immediately were immersed in baby land. CJ and I put K down on the floor and started interacting with the babies and chit chatting with Kerry, as well as interacting with Quinn, who was beside himself to have visitors to entertain. Kerry and her DH also have rescued three Doxie's, so that was a fun little introduction as well, especially as one of them is highly protective of "her" babies. LOL. I think we all felt pretty comfortable, and it was so much fun to watch Keifer in her glory, trying to touch all the babies. Our girl also made her first official moves to crawl - an army crawl! YAY! The stimulating environment really got her going!
After Kerry's DH arrived home, the four of us adults got to the nitty gritty and talked about the donor egg idea. Kerry had emailed me, and to sum it all up, she had a feeling in her heart that spoke to her, that she wanted to donate her eggs to us. Of course, we were bowled over by her kindness, and especially blown away, as it happened to us the same way with our first IVF cycle - which resulted in our angel girl, K. Kerry and her DH had questions, and we all dissected all the if's and buts, and this woman is amazing: she wants to do it for us 3 times if the first few times don't work. We want to be able to do the warranty program at our clinic- which means that if we don't succeed the first 1-2-3 times, then we get a percentage of our money back in the end. We are hoping that isn't the case, and that we are lucky attempt #1. In our first IVF cycle, we pretty much were taking a crap shoot with using Mooshie the first time, as she lives far away, and we weren't sure what we would've done the second or third time around if it hadn't worked. God was sending us all his angels when we were traveling down that road, and I hope and pray he sends them back to us this summer.
Kerry also has help with her children, which is a huge factor, as my RE clinic doesn't allow children, and her appointments won't always be scheduled in stone, depending on how her body reacts to the medications. I'm guessing she won't need a lot of drugs to get her follicles revved up, as this woman is fertile! But- I was worried about the timing of appointments, and the trouble that she might have in finding help to take care of her kiddos. I don't want HER home life to be affected much if she is OKed to do this.
We left on a good note, all of us feeling good about things. Hopeful and optimistic. A bit nervous. On our drive home, K fell asleep and it was just CJ and I in the dark car, silent for awhile, both thinking our own thoughts.
Out of nowhere, I was hit with this sudden weight of sadness, like a ton of bricks, descending upon my chest. Here I was, going home after meeting the next possible egg angel for us, and I started to cry. But I knew why I was crying: I was crying because after I had Keifer, I had this glimmer of hope that perhaps my body wasn't as fucked up as it was before I had her. Maybe the PG had tricked it into behaving like a women's body typically should. But no. My body wouldn't cooperate - it won't ovulate- and it makes me sad. It makes me sad and angry at my body, and pissed off that what comes so naturally to so many, is impossible for me to achieve.
I was also grieving the loss of being able to use Mooshie as our egg donor again. Yes, we knew it wouldn't be possible, most likely, again, but still; it was such an emotional journey the first time, and starting down a new path is scary. Scary and emotional. So I was emotional. I told Kerry it has nothing against her - I'm honored that she has offered her body and her eggs to help us attempt to complete our family. But a part of CJ and I are grieving the loss of Mooshie's body, as well as my own.
I know much of this post may seem confusing right now. I'm hungry and tired. But know that I am happy and pleased as punch that Kerry is in the running. It makes me excited to think about the possibility of having more of an extended, connected network for my children in the future. It makes both CJ and I happy that our possible child/children will be able to also know THEIR egg angel. This is important to us, as Keifer will grow up knowing hers, and we want that to be somewhat special and complete for possibility #2 (and #3!?).
Please continue to pray for our family and for our egg angel #2 (in the running!). We appreciate it, and I'll continue to let you know how things go. And a special, loving thanks to Kerry, for allowing me to "out" her and let the world know just how special she really is.
She has given me the OK to blog about her, so I'll tell you her name: it's Kerry. Yep, the same as mine, albeit spelled differently. Kerry has a 3 year old beautiful son, Quinn, and has three amazing babies: triplets, to be exact. Yep. Triplets. She is a super woman. She had triplets naturally - meaning with no fertility treatments or drugs needed. She is a statistical phenomenon. There are two little guys, Ewan and Noel, and one little princess-in-training, Mairin. To say we were in love is to put it mildly. What a fun house they have.
Kerry contacted me after keeping up with my blog, and I have her blog listed on the side of MY blog- A Womb with a Few. She is friends with friends of mine, and I have enjoyed following her tales of her PG and life with babies. We had never met face to face before, or even emailed for that matter.
We arrived at Kerry's home and immediately were immersed in baby land. CJ and I put K down on the floor and started interacting with the babies and chit chatting with Kerry, as well as interacting with Quinn, who was beside himself to have visitors to entertain. Kerry and her DH also have rescued three Doxie's, so that was a fun little introduction as well, especially as one of them is highly protective of "her" babies. LOL. I think we all felt pretty comfortable, and it was so much fun to watch Keifer in her glory, trying to touch all the babies. Our girl also made her first official moves to crawl - an army crawl! YAY! The stimulating environment really got her going!
After Kerry's DH arrived home, the four of us adults got to the nitty gritty and talked about the donor egg idea. Kerry had emailed me, and to sum it all up, she had a feeling in her heart that spoke to her, that she wanted to donate her eggs to us. Of course, we were bowled over by her kindness, and especially blown away, as it happened to us the same way with our first IVF cycle - which resulted in our angel girl, K. Kerry and her DH had questions, and we all dissected all the if's and buts, and this woman is amazing: she wants to do it for us 3 times if the first few times don't work. We want to be able to do the warranty program at our clinic- which means that if we don't succeed the first 1-2-3 times, then we get a percentage of our money back in the end. We are hoping that isn't the case, and that we are lucky attempt #1. In our first IVF cycle, we pretty much were taking a crap shoot with using Mooshie the first time, as she lives far away, and we weren't sure what we would've done the second or third time around if it hadn't worked. God was sending us all his angels when we were traveling down that road, and I hope and pray he sends them back to us this summer.
Kerry also has help with her children, which is a huge factor, as my RE clinic doesn't allow children, and her appointments won't always be scheduled in stone, depending on how her body reacts to the medications. I'm guessing she won't need a lot of drugs to get her follicles revved up, as this woman is fertile! But- I was worried about the timing of appointments, and the trouble that she might have in finding help to take care of her kiddos. I don't want HER home life to be affected much if she is OKed to do this.
We left on a good note, all of us feeling good about things. Hopeful and optimistic. A bit nervous. On our drive home, K fell asleep and it was just CJ and I in the dark car, silent for awhile, both thinking our own thoughts.
Out of nowhere, I was hit with this sudden weight of sadness, like a ton of bricks, descending upon my chest. Here I was, going home after meeting the next possible egg angel for us, and I started to cry. But I knew why I was crying: I was crying because after I had Keifer, I had this glimmer of hope that perhaps my body wasn't as fucked up as it was before I had her. Maybe the PG had tricked it into behaving like a women's body typically should. But no. My body wouldn't cooperate - it won't ovulate- and it makes me sad. It makes me sad and angry at my body, and pissed off that what comes so naturally to so many, is impossible for me to achieve.
I was also grieving the loss of being able to use Mooshie as our egg donor again. Yes, we knew it wouldn't be possible, most likely, again, but still; it was such an emotional journey the first time, and starting down a new path is scary. Scary and emotional. So I was emotional. I told Kerry it has nothing against her - I'm honored that she has offered her body and her eggs to help us attempt to complete our family. But a part of CJ and I are grieving the loss of Mooshie's body, as well as my own.
I know much of this post may seem confusing right now. I'm hungry and tired. But know that I am happy and pleased as punch that Kerry is in the running. It makes me excited to think about the possibility of having more of an extended, connected network for my children in the future. It makes both CJ and I happy that our possible child/children will be able to also know THEIR egg angel. This is important to us, as Keifer will grow up knowing hers, and we want that to be somewhat special and complete for possibility #2 (and #3!?).
Please continue to pray for our family and for our egg angel #2 (in the running!). We appreciate it, and I'll continue to let you know how things go. And a special, loving thanks to Kerry, for allowing me to "out" her and let the world know just how special she really is.
The girls: Kerry & Mairin, me and Keif
The crew: Quinn, Kerry holding Noel & Mairin, me holding Ewan & Keif
Friday, January 18, 2008
Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr: Baby, it's cold outside, and other chatter
No, not our TEETH chattering.........just soupbowl dish. Get it? "Chatter". Ha ha.
It is freaking FREEZING out in MN right now- the warmest part of the day was at 8 AM and it was supposed to get colder as the day goes on This weekend, the wind chill will be far below zero, and in Duluth, where I'm from and my family lives, it's supposed to be -60 below wind chills! *(GASP)*. When I crawled into bed last night, I was cursing myself for NOT putting on our flannel sheets - I love them. I had on my flannel PJs, my slipper socks, and ended up having to put on my Cuddle Duds (thin long underwear) under THAT just to get warm enough to sleep! I'm usually a cold baby, but I've never had to do that. I'm wondering if the King Size bed and lack of CJ's body warmth (he's not a cuddle bug like me) has to do with my need for more layers. Sager is always pressed up against me, under many layers, but she is only 11 pounds of heat, I need MORE than that to warm me up. Oye.
We are meeting tomorrow with our potential egg donor #2, as stated before. She is nervous, and I have to admit, I am too. My heart is starting to race, a little more of a frantic pace than usual, but I know its just excitement more than actual nerves. EA#2 (Egg Angel 2) has told me she feels like she is waiting to be asked to the Prom tomorrow when we come over. LOL. She apparently talked to the highly unorganized schedule coordinator at our clinic this AM; FINALLY. *hurmpf*. I think she passed the tests, especially when she was able to answer that "NO", she has not been offered money or drugs for sex, and "NO", she has not offered anybody money or drugs for sex. Ahhhhh, the hurdles to jump. *it is good to know I won't be possibly using someone who would let their body be violated in that manner* (*Snort*).
It is freaking FREEZING out in MN right now- the warmest part of the day was at 8 AM and it was supposed to get colder as the day goes on This weekend, the wind chill will be far below zero, and in Duluth, where I'm from and my family lives, it's supposed to be -60 below wind chills! *(GASP)*. When I crawled into bed last night, I was cursing myself for NOT putting on our flannel sheets - I love them. I had on my flannel PJs, my slipper socks, and ended up having to put on my Cuddle Duds (thin long underwear) under THAT just to get warm enough to sleep! I'm usually a cold baby, but I've never had to do that. I'm wondering if the King Size bed and lack of CJ's body warmth (he's not a cuddle bug like me) has to do with my need for more layers. Sager is always pressed up against me, under many layers, but she is only 11 pounds of heat, I need MORE than that to warm me up. Oye.
We are meeting tomorrow with our potential egg donor #2, as stated before. She is nervous, and I have to admit, I am too. My heart is starting to race, a little more of a frantic pace than usual, but I know its just excitement more than actual nerves. EA#2 (Egg Angel 2) has told me she feels like she is waiting to be asked to the Prom tomorrow when we come over. LOL. She apparently talked to the highly unorganized schedule coordinator at our clinic this AM; FINALLY. *hurmpf*. I think she passed the tests, especially when she was able to answer that "NO", she has not been offered money or drugs for sex, and "NO", she has not offered anybody money or drugs for sex. Ahhhhh, the hurdles to jump. *it is good to know I won't be possibly using someone who would let their body be violated in that manner* (*Snort*).
Monday, January 14, 2008
Why? Well, I'll tell you......
I've heard from a few different people that you are wondering about WHY we canceled our blood work and what is going on. Yes, it's probably confusing, but just to let you know, nothing is wrong with us. CJ and I have a very important (possibly) life changing decision to make, and we want to go forward cautiously with this. Choosing an Egg Donor isn't just about going to the mall and picking one out and guaranteeing that is THE ONE that is for you, or that its necessarily going to work. There is a multitude of testing to be done by all of us, there is paperwork beyond belief to be dug through, and there are meetings with doctors and meetings of the potential parents (us) with the donor-to-be. And of course, there is the certainty in our hearts that this is what we want to do, which comes in to play.
With Mooshie, the process to get the ball rolling started out as such an unexpected thing, and we were clueless as to how the process went. It was very frustrating, as our clinic's coordinator isn't necessarily on the ball as I think she SHOULD be (hell, I've waited long enough to be a mommy, so dammit, I'll crack the whip!). We waited 2 months, until it looked as though Mooshie was for sure going to be able to be our donor - before we told anybody (other than our immediate family members). I remember sharing the news as vividly as if it was yesterday. Many tears of joy were shed.
We have a possibility for an egg donor this time around again as well. It won't be Mooshie, as she lives too far away, and logistically, with 2 young children right now, and a potential move in her future to a city farther out of her city, it just wouldn't work. We are sad about that, but at the same time, grateful to the ends of the earth for her ability to give us her eggs, and for our angel girl, K, being the result of that journey. Mooshie will forever and ever by my long lost soul sister, my daughter Keifer's "egg mama", and K's Godmother. Keifer will forever be Maddie and Alex's 1/3 sissy, and for that, we are blessed beyond belief.
This new journey started with some emails, very much like how it began with Mooshie. The potential donor wrote to us and proposed that she wanted to be considered for this very special job, and would we consider her? CJ and I weren't sure at first how we wanted to walk down this particular path, and we knew if we took some time, and started making decisions, and prayed on it, things would play out like they should and we'd go from there. Not that it wasn't stressful, but we weren't sure of what we were thinking. Thoughts were like swirling tornadoes through our minds (at least mine were!).
The person who may be our donor is actually located right here in our metro area. She actually lives closer to our clinic than we do. She is extremely fertile; just how fertile, well, I'll share more of that later down the road with her permission, and when things might look a little more "green light" to use her. She is going to be filling out paperwork, going through interviews and blood work, and this coming weekend, CJ, Keif and myself will be visiting with her and her brood. *deep breath*
We are excited and nervous. This just isn't a stop at some one's house for a snack and some chatter. This is meeting a woman who may be the next angel on earth for us: the possible woman who will share a part of her being to hopefully give us another chance at bliss with possibly another child (or children!). It's almost like going on a blind date with the man you KNOW you are going to maybe be marrying a few months down the road.
The few tidbits I can share: she is similar in build to me, she has naturally red hair, blue eyes, fair skin, loves to read, loves music, loves to laugh and appears to be smart ass, loves animals and has rescued dogs. She has one of her children already enrolled in musical lessons, the violin to be exact, which warms my heart as I played the violin (*first chair, mind you*) for three years. I'll compare the similarities with myself: I color my hair red, I have green eyes, fair skin, love to read, love music, love to laugh, I think of myself as a smart ass, love animals, and have rescued dogs.
Need I say more? I'll keep you posted (and with her permission, as well, as stated previously).
With Mooshie, the process to get the ball rolling started out as such an unexpected thing, and we were clueless as to how the process went. It was very frustrating, as our clinic's coordinator isn't necessarily on the ball as I think she SHOULD be (hell, I've waited long enough to be a mommy, so dammit, I'll crack the whip!). We waited 2 months, until it looked as though Mooshie was for sure going to be able to be our donor - before we told anybody (other than our immediate family members). I remember sharing the news as vividly as if it was yesterday. Many tears of joy were shed.
We have a possibility for an egg donor this time around again as well. It won't be Mooshie, as she lives too far away, and logistically, with 2 young children right now, and a potential move in her future to a city farther out of her city, it just wouldn't work. We are sad about that, but at the same time, grateful to the ends of the earth for her ability to give us her eggs, and for our angel girl, K, being the result of that journey. Mooshie will forever and ever by my long lost soul sister, my daughter Keifer's "egg mama", and K's Godmother. Keifer will forever be Maddie and Alex's 1/3 sissy, and for that, we are blessed beyond belief.
This new journey started with some emails, very much like how it began with Mooshie. The potential donor wrote to us and proposed that she wanted to be considered for this very special job, and would we consider her? CJ and I weren't sure at first how we wanted to walk down this particular path, and we knew if we took some time, and started making decisions, and prayed on it, things would play out like they should and we'd go from there. Not that it wasn't stressful, but we weren't sure of what we were thinking. Thoughts were like swirling tornadoes through our minds (at least mine were!).
The person who may be our donor is actually located right here in our metro area. She actually lives closer to our clinic than we do. She is extremely fertile; just how fertile, well, I'll share more of that later down the road with her permission, and when things might look a little more "green light" to use her. She is going to be filling out paperwork, going through interviews and blood work, and this coming weekend, CJ, Keif and myself will be visiting with her and her brood. *deep breath*
We are excited and nervous. This just isn't a stop at some one's house for a snack and some chatter. This is meeting a woman who may be the next angel on earth for us: the possible woman who will share a part of her being to hopefully give us another chance at bliss with possibly another child (or children!). It's almost like going on a blind date with the man you KNOW you are going to maybe be marrying a few months down the road.
The few tidbits I can share: she is similar in build to me, she has naturally red hair, blue eyes, fair skin, loves to read, loves music, loves to laugh and appears to be smart ass, loves animals and has rescued dogs. She has one of her children already enrolled in musical lessons, the violin to be exact, which warms my heart as I played the violin (*first chair, mind you*) for three years. I'll compare the similarities with myself: I color my hair red, I have green eyes, fair skin, love to read, love music, love to laugh, I think of myself as a smart ass, love animals, and have rescued dogs.
Need I say more? I'll keep you posted (and with her permission, as well, as stated previously).
Thursday, January 10, 2008
We canceled our Blood work for today
CJ and I have thought long and hard, and have been discussing ideas and "what should we do" for a few months now. After a hard (emotionally) weekend for me (which I shouldn't be experiencing right now, I have a fantastic hubby and gorgeous baby and sweet fur kids), we decided to cancel all our blood work, program (anonymous donor) sign-up , and won't be meeting with our Doctor next week.
We might have a potential egg donor here in MN in the works, but we don't want to get too excited about it just yet. There are so many steps to take, and we aren't sure of what the outcome will bring, but just pray for all of us - CJ and I (I'm still emotional and nervous), and the potential donor. We'd appreciate it and I'll keep you posted when the timing is right.
We might have a potential egg donor here in MN in the works, but we don't want to get too excited about it just yet. There are so many steps to take, and we aren't sure of what the outcome will bring, but just pray for all of us - CJ and I (I'm still emotional and nervous), and the potential donor. We'd appreciate it and I'll keep you posted when the timing is right.
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