Friday, June 27, 2008

Feeling frustrated and blue: 3 ahead of us on Donor List

I left a message the other day for our nurse who schedules the IVF donors, etc.. She left ME a message this AM while I was walking the dogs: she said there are 3 ahead of us on the Donor Egg list, and that she is hoping to match them and have THEM cycling by August/September.
This pushes us out into late Fall.
I'm so sad. I know I have no control over any of this, but I truly had it so awesome when I 1)cycled in the summer, and 2) had Keifer's due date in Spring.
Being a special education teacher, cycling in the summer was nice, because it was relatively stress free, and I didn't have to take time off for doctor visits or 2 full days of bed rest. Not to mention, I teach 3 year olds and it's not exactly a "relaxing" job. I know me and I know how my Fall goes at work: pure stress. *blah* Plus, having a due date closer and closer to the Fall time will suck, because I won't be able to take off as much time as I want to. That may sound petty and selfish to many of you, but I had it so good having Keifer in the Spring, because I was able to combine my maternity leave with my summer vacation and was able to spend precious time with my new baby. *sigh*
Please pray for us and send me patience and "feel good" vibes. Yes, I'm impatient, but I just want to get this going and am worried about the timing and stress factors. :(

8 comments:

Jamie said...

I totally understand how factoring school into the situation makes everything more difficult. I had the same issues but eventually I just didn't care and kept doing IVF despite all of the days I had to take off work. I ended up with a November baby and it all still managed to work out. Hang in there.

kristine said...

That has got to be really tough. i don't think it's selfish of you to want more time off to spend with the child you try soooo extremely hard for. I hope all goes the way you want it to....

Kir said...

It's totally understandable that you want it to happen like it did last time, plus you're right the "extra" stress won't help, but you know it won't hurt either. it will work out the way it's suppossed to. I promise you that.

You're not selfish, wanting to spend time with your new baby is NOT selfish, it's being an amazing mommy. It's all going to be ok. But I'll send some good vibes for Patience just in case.

*hug*

Michele (Moosh) said...

Oh honey, hugs. I will pray pray pray for you. DAMNIT, why can't it be me??? Why can't it be frozen embryoes from our cycle? WAAAAAAAAAH!

Jeni said...

Sorry things aren't lining up just right for you, hopefully things will work out in the end. Thinking good thoughts for you :)

Marketing Mama said...

Hang in there - it will all work out! I had one baby in the middle of summer and one in the middle of winter and they both seemed to have perfect timing.

Jennifer Prince said...

((HUGS))

Notes and letters to myself.... said...

Hi there - I totally understand your frustration. It's so hard to wait. You are right none of us have any control of this process, that's one of the hardest parts for sure.

I don't think you are being selfish at all.

I don't know if you are aware of MVED but it's a great group that offers lots of support, and will help you anyway they can.

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/MVED/

Take care - Marna another MVED Mom.

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