New Little Fishie, Swimmin' in the Water

Well, I've taken the plunge. I've decided after months of hemming and hawwing , to take the dip into the big, new pool called Blogging. I'm really not sure if blogging will be my cup of chai tea latte (soy milk, please), but I may as well attempt to pretend I know what I'm doing, right?

For 2 1/2 years, Chris and I have been trying to have a baby - just one. We're not selfish. We'd be happy with a healthy child, 10 fingers and 10 toes. We even started TTC before our wedding. We giggled and had the foolish notion of "how cool would it be to be hiding a baby inside me at our wedding"? *(sigh*). The dreams of an in-love, baby-loving *(baby hungry)* newly married couple.

Without going into gory details, that would take pages....let's just say we've not succeeded at making even one baby yet, not even a chemical PG, not even a whisper of a "blue line" indicating a positive PG test. *sigh again*. Many tears have been shed, much heartache agonized over, and many meds I've now begun (anti-depressants gratefully accepted by my emotions).

13 medicated cycles, 6 failed IUI's , and one canceled IVF cycle due to "poor response" and now we are onto a donor egg cycle. We began this particular cycle in January - after a girl I met on an online message board emailed me and offered to be my egg donor. I've known Michele/Mooshie for 2 1/2 years (since we started TTC together and I've been left in the non-baby luck dust since most of our board now consists of mommies who are expecting #2 or even #3!). Initially, CJ and I asked my cousin Becky to be our egg donor, but her life circumstances are in a different playing field right now.........

Mooshie has gone thru all the hoops and jumps and we've made it this far. I'm calling Mooshie my angel. She is my soul sister -- we look alike, talk alike, have the same ailments, and same thoughts on life (minus the Patty Duke cheesy music).

So we've met w/docs, started our Birth control pills to suppress our ovaries and get our cycles in sync, and we now begin the BIG JOURNEY into IVF w/Donor Eggs.
Wednesday is my Depo-Lupron shot. A big ol' needle in my butt muscles. CJ (Chris) likes to call himself DR. Campbell -- since he's injected me more than I'd care to count. His favorite includes the meds that need to be mixed, so he was quite disappointed to hear that the Depo-Lupron shot is pre-packaged and no mixing is needed. *sad face for CJ*.

I will try to keep this Blogging up. I am not a fan of writing in a journal with pen and paper, and writing down my thoughts on WORD just didn't make sense. This makes sense. I'll try to keep it up.