Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Here is HPT #1
Can you see it? Can you see the line? It's very faint, but there is a definite ++ there. I even took ANOTHER test, while on the phone with Mooshie! LOL I peed and she listened, and then, like magic, the + showed up again! WOW!
Could it be true? After 3 years of stark whiteness, I feel like the BFN Queen. I seriously can't believe my eyes. But we both (CJ and I ) see it. OMG . If this is true, PLEASE PLEASE God, let it stick stick stick *hot glue guns, please*. My heart and CJ's heart can't take anymore tears or sadness.
I'm still in awe. Surreal. Calm, then giddy. Sick to my stomach. Exhausted from a short night of sleep, and sick to my stomach from nerves, excitement, I'm scared, I have a headache. I just finally ate a late, late lunch. I've been either online or on the phone all afternoon.
Moosh finally called back. I feel bad, I initially sort of tricked her by dragging out my story of the AM: she thought I Had a BFN (which I initially did). But then I started laughing like an idiot and told her the news, and she was so excited she was shaking and literally threw up some bile. LOL . She has been just an nervous, if not more, than I have. She said not being with me or being in constant contact has been hard, as it has been for me. She said it's like an arm being cut off or something, and same goes for me. We've been through SO Much together on this emotional IVF journey, its just incredible.
I was convinced after the two other women on my TTC board that did the DE IVF got their BFPs, that I'd HAVE to be in 50% that won't work. But the miracle of prayer and friends and love had to have been the reason for the lines on the test.
Chris just told me, "Honey, there's lines". He is very nervous, as I am. We just don't believe it, until we get a beta ### and until we see an Ultrasound. OMG. I could have a baby or babies in me. OMG. So we'll find out on Thursday afternoon the ##.